No, it’s not about the new Britney Spears video 🙂 .

According to dictionary.com:

To give female characteristics to; feminize.

I’m not plenty of physical attributes. I’m not repulsive though, which is a good point already 🙂 .

Anyhow, what matters more to me are the personality characteristics. Everybody has attractive points. Some know better how to let it show more, at least they are aware of what is their best to show. Others, like me, have some difficulty handling it favorably. Better saying, trying to handle it, loose spontaneity and seduction potential.  

I can only consider feedback I received from others. I’m not able to judge it myself. Several times people told me they felt comfortable with me to share personal stuff.

Then, if my attractives come from personality, what I can do best to handle it favorably is keeping spontaneity when I feel myself attracted to someone too….that’s where problems begin. I need to learn how to manage not to loose it when I need it most. I want to feel and get aware of it at the moment I start loosing it. When I’m uncomfortable I make others around me to feel the same.

The only way to take control over your life is knowing yourself better, strong and weak points.

I can’t get back what is lost. But my life has not ended yet.

“To produce is to force what belongs to another order (that of secrecy and seduction) to materialize. Seduction is that which is everywhere and always opposed to production; seduction withdraws something from the visible order and so runs counter to production”  – Jean Baudrillard