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Ugly Lady 44

Today I entered an online chat, for the first time in many months.

It’s something I do occasionally, and it is my first relaxing weekend in many weeks, since I did all my cleaning during the past week after work.

The nick I chose: Ugly Lady, 44.

In 5 min I had over 30 requests to chat. I don’t know how much the “SweetAndSexy” or other cute and sexy nicks get, but Ugly Lady was rocking.

If many women just knew, how simple, basic men are, they would stop spending hours wondering “how he feels”. Really, men don’t waste long hours thinking about how they feel.

So just enjoy and try a more basic and simple approach with men to see how things flow easier. Focus on what you have, what you’re giving and what you want.

 

 

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Post-Love

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“I feel liberated. I am, now and forever, post-love, and as such, am free to pursue a life of meaning”

Asking for Nothing …And Receiving Everything

Fantastic Meditation!

Jealousy

 

Jealousy is usually triggered by what the person considers a threaten of loss.

It’s a feeling of abandonment due to the partner’s attention being given to someone else.

The threaten may or may not be realistic as the person feels that.

Most of people I know confront their partners with questions and forbid them to do things.

Everybody feels that at a certain level.

I wouldn’t confront a partner about things that made me jealous.

I don’t think that’s the smart thing to do.

What the jealous person really wants cannot be achieved through forbidding the partner to do certain things.

What the jealous person really wants is the partner to stop wanting to do certain things.  And that doesn’t come through forbidden actions.

The partner may respond to the claim and stop doing but what if the partner still wants to do?

He will probably not share his feelings to avoid problems.

We can’t stop someone else desires just by wishing that no matter what.

All I know is that if I had a suspicion, not a real undeniable fact, I’d not confront my partner.

I’d instead analyze carefully how is the communication in the relationship.

What stopped working that worked well before? And would mostly analyze my actions first.

Would find out what in myself triggered the jealousy feeling.

If there’s a problem in the communication it must be resolved between the couple, at their perspective as a couple.

Not from a suspicious or third part perspective.

Nothing can be resolved on the outside or with someone else if it’s not resolved within us before.

 

 

 

Wish List

Today I have made a wish list.

It has 10 items.

Then I realized it all can be expressed in one single wish: A PEACEFUL, PLENTY, USEFUL AND MORE INTERESTING LIFE.

Message To a Friend

There is no other way

We have to remain away

Wishing each other well

Unresolved Feelings

Denying unresolved feelings for other person is getting them swept under the carpet.

It’s necessary to feel it to the deepest to know what is felt.

I’ve been dealing with unresolved feelings for like 3 years.

It’s not an easy thing. And as time goes by, the communication chances to clarify things with the other person disappeared in the past and I see myself with this huge thing to deal inside me.

A long time has gone and sometimes I feel the other side may have unresolved feelings for me too. But I know this sensation may be a product of how I feel. I’ve lost the capacity to distinguish between what I see and what I wanna see about this.

This feeling, resolved or not, is important to me. It’s strong and lasting, and not because it’s unresolved.

And how do I get to know it’s still strong and lasting?

Because he is someone I see regularly and meet in social occasions where I’m supposed to act friendly and socially with him. And at those times it becomes more evident how I feel.

When you just meet someone and an interest on the person starts it’s easier to deal with it. Because even you are not so aware of how you feel and you end up showing it a little bit on what you say or do without caring much of consequences. And if the other side is interested too, things flow naturally.

After a long time, when you know very well how you feel, it can be really uncomfortable. There is no option between faking a friendly attitude or opening yourself up and possibly causing a huge embarrassment and discomfort for the other side too. It’s not that he is not a friend. He is. And a good one. But I can’t be his friend sincerely while having all these feelings for him as a man.I’m not able to naturally start conversation and make spontaneous contacts like I do with other male friends just because it wouldn’t feel natural for me. I think he notices I don’t feel natural beside him. Just don’t know if he has a clue of why it is.

I can’t believe I put this in words. And without professional help 🙂  [not yet]. Big step. So relieving. Better late than never.

The Power Of Eye Contact

After all this time…I admit…my heart still goes faster when my eyes meet his.

Damn your eyes!

I can do what I want
I’m in complete control
That’s what I tell myself
I got a mind of my own
I’ll be alright alone
Don’t need anybody else

I gave myself a good talkin’ to
No more bein’ a fool for you
And when I see you all I remember
Is how you make me wanna surrender

chorus:

Damn your eyes
For takin’ my breath away
Makin’ me wanna stay
Damn your eyes
For getting my hopes up high
Makin’ me fall in love again
Damn your eyes

Life In Mars

I know why the book of John Gray, Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus, released in 1992 was a huge success.
Years ago I read it borrowed from a friend.

That’s it. We need each other, it can be fun, it can be nice. That’s all. We can’t transform men’s behavior into ours.
No frustration.

Few weeks ago, a friend of mine called me on a Sunday afternoon and asked if he could come to my place because he needed to “talk to someone like me”. I got surprised but I said okay of course, he is a nice friend.

I knew in advance what his problem was. He was engaged and his fiancée found out he was cheating on her and they broke up.
He cried like a 5-year-old boy for a while and then told me how he felt and how he loves her and kept talking about everything that happened, what he did and why, etc, etc.

As I was listening to him, that was what could help him better, I kept thinking of how most of we women, here in Venus, allow heart and emotions command our thoughts and actions. And how the guys there in Mars fight bravely not to let it happen, at least not to let it last long when it happens, they fight to recover control over emotions. They really live in another planet. Most of them at least, there are exceptions of course, which is not necessarily positive.

Last Friday, the same devastated friend invited me to join him and other friends to go out. He’s getting over. We all had a nice time. He is incredibly better now. And I believe he was really devastated the other day. I also believe he loves her. But she can’t forgive him and make it up again. So he’s just recovering.

I see younger girls have a different attitude already and maybe there’s hope in the future things can get a little more balanced between men and women than they are now, at least emotionally speaking. Still those girls are exceptions.

It took a long way for women to conquer their space in society and look where we are now. We have the option of being independent.
That independence doesn’t go well with a Middle Age heart. No, no, no, no. It can’t be the end of the world when we get rejected or someone cheat on us. Wipe tears off and move on.

Now that we conquered all that space in practical matters I think many of us, me included, have a long way to become emotionally independent also.

We complain that men let their sexual impulses control them and they complain that we are too emotional and need commitment.

There’s gotta be a midway.

My Poor Defenseless Unprotected Heart

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