Sharing

Do we really have the need to share what is going on in our lives?

I guess the answer is yes, but not necessarily with our circle of friends or relatives.

Sometimes, especially in difficult times, it’s easier having random conversations with strangers than with friends we’ve known for years or relatives.

My father died, in very revolting circumstances. The only people I can talk about it, who really share the same feelings, are my sisters and my mom. Nobody else that I know. But I have occasionally shared it with strangers.

Last night I took a bus to the city I live in and from which I have been temporarily away.  I had to move to another seat, since the one beside me was occupied by a young mother with a toddler. I ended up seating beside an elderly lady, whose grandson died two years ago in a horrible car accident. We shared our pain, our memories. I had known about the accident that killed five students from the same university at the time. It caused great commotion in our city.  That was an absolute synchronicity.

I know it is natural of friends and relatives to ask about. But I am not willing to share with them. At all.

 

 

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“Hi, it’s me”

As I age, fewer people say that when calling me.

The closest ones I have and that I love and care about, and can be sure that love me back and care about me.

Having lost a dear friend a few years ago, made me realize this more and more.

I have been alone all my life, and I am afraid I have become too good at it.

But what kept me strong all this time, were the “Hi, it’s me” calls. They make me feel connected to the world. I am a better me because those people exist.

I recently started fearing they will all end one day and there is nothing I can do about it.

I hope there is something to be done about.

That would make me another me, not even a trace of who I am now.

 

Ugly Lady 44

Today I entered an online chat, for the first time in many months.

It’s something I do occasionally, and it is my first relaxing weekend in many weeks, since I did all my cleaning during the past week after work.

The nick I chose: Ugly Lady, 44.

In 5 min I had over 30 requests to chat. I don’t know how much the “SweetAndSexy” or other cute and sexy nicks get, but Ugly Lady was rocking.

If many women just knew, how simple, basic men are, they would stop spending hours wondering “how he feels”. Really, men don’t waste long hours thinking about how they feel.

So just enjoy and try a more basic and simple approach with men to see how things flow easier. Focus on what you have, what you’re giving and what you want.