HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MY DEAR FRIEND!
Is it our thoughts that control our emotions or our emotions that control our thoughts?
I think the answer is : if we don’t have control over our thoughts and their power, then our emotions can take control over ourselves.
It’s not an easy thing though.
We usually allow positive emotions and thoughts be dependent on external factors. And negative emotions can come even without external factors.
Good emotions that depend only on external factors don’t last. And negative emotions can produce bad thoughts and even worse emotions. I’m pretty sure not only external factors cause diseases but negative emotions are an open door for them too.
Why is it so difficult to make a positive emotion last and so difficult to get rid of the negative ones?
The key is learning how to reject every negative emotions when they come. We’re humans, they come.
Rejecting negative emotions bring good thoughts and positive emotions that are not dependent on external factors and can last much longer.
It improves with practice and the benefit comes to ourselves and the ones who we share life with. It develops tolerance and increases our capacity to deal with difficulties in a more positive way.
“Mens sana in corpore sano”.
This is the first time in my whole life that I’m experiencing living alone and at the same time not having any special feelings for any guy.
So, it’s the first time I can really appreciate the wonders, the freedom and the peace of mind and heart of being single and living alone.
I don’t really want to talk about it with my friends, specially my female friends, because they’d never understand me. In fact it’s not that I don’t want, I really don’t need to talk about it with them. They don’t come here, so …whatever.
But I wanted to write this today, just to be on the records. And this is my blog, I can write what I want.
I believe in love but right now I’m not searching for any in my life. I mean, romantic love. My heart is full of love for life right now. I don’t think I’ll ever want it again in my life like I did before. And it’s not bad at all. I really don’t think romantic love is the greatest happiness possible in life.
I believe nothing and nobody can bring us happiness if it’s not already there inside of us.
If this is weird or any psychological problem, I don’t want to heal. It feels plenty good enough for me.
Maybe I don’t know how to love. Because when I do, I get stupid and it takes a great piece of my thoughts and feelings. I don’t want that anymore. Not in this incarnation.
I don’t regret anything. I don’t care about the past. That’s why it’s called past.
I suddenly got aware that I’m not made to share life with anybody. Not this time. I know that for sure. And I’m not a foolish young woman saying that. I know myself very well at this point. And I feel happy for my peace of mind. It’s like my mind has moved to a bigger place, with plenty of space for myself and everything else.
It’s real freedom. Freedom can only be complete when it includes mind.
Habit is really a powerful thing. There are some things that I do exclusively by the power of habit.
The reason that motivated them and the meaning they had when I started are just not there anymore.
But every circumstance changes one day.
And old habits are only quit by circumstances, because as they had a reason to start so they need a reason to quit.