My birthday is in July. Some people [friends, relatives, acquaintances] who remember it’s in July but not the exact day have contacted me to congratulate me and give me their best wishes.
I don’t like birthdays. Anyway, it’s good to be remembered. I love my friends and family.
Though, the thing I want more now nobody has wished to me.
I wish I could disappear for a long while. Stop contact with everybody I love [friends, family, etc] and travel somewhere far, far away, where nobody could find me. Some place where I don’t know anybody and nobody knows me. Some place I can’t even read the signs, a totally different language. Then I could experience what real freedom is. There’s no real freedom while heart is stuck and involved to other people. I wouldn’t stay there forever. Maybe a year would be enough or even too long, I don’t know. It’s something I’ve never experienced in my life and I wish I could go for it right now. Just me. On my own.
Maybe in the near future. Maybe.